Kate Cassidy Says She Feels ‘Numb’ Ahead of the 1-Year Anniversary of Boyfriend Liam Payne’s Death

This Thursday (Oct. 16) is going to beryllium a challenging time for Liam Payne‘s household and friends, including the precocious star’s girlfriend, Kate Cassidy.

That’s due to the fact that the day volition people precisely 1 twelvemonth since Payne died aft falling from the 4th level of his edifice successful Argentina. Four days earlier that, the influencer saw her fellow for what she didn’t cognize yet was the past clip — thing Cassidy reflected connected successful an affectional TikTok posted Sunday (Oct. 12).

“One twelvemonth agone contiguous connected Oct. 12 was the past time that I spent with Liam,” Cassidy began. “I consciousness honestly highly numb today. I really deliberation idiosyncratic could slap maine crossed the face, and I wouldn’t adjacent beryllium fazed.”

“I wanted to marque this video, due to the fact that I wanted to explicit however important it is to truly punctual your loved ones however overmuch you emotion them,” she continued. “I cognize I ever accidental it, but you ne'er cognize what time brings.”

The net property went connected to picture the past speech she had with Payne successful Argentina. Cassidy had accompanied him for the archetypal portion of the trip, but near a fewer days earlier his death.

“I was sitting connected the couch, conscionable expressing to him however overmuch I’m going to miss him, however overmuch I emotion him,” she told the camera with tears successful her eyes. “Honestly, it’s truthful weird to look backmost astatine due to the fact that it was specified a long, heartfelt goodbye. He looked astatine me, and helium said, ‘[Kate], you’re going to miss your flight. You’re acting similar this is the past clip you’re ever going to spot maine again.’ And small did I know, it virtually was the past clip I got to spot him.”

She added, “I’m so, truthful gladsome that maine and Liam had that past goodbye the mode it was.”

In the contiguous days that followed Payne’s death, household members, fans and each 4 of his erstwhile One Direction bandmates shared statements expressing their grief.

Louis Tomlinson precocious revealed that, similar Cassidy, he’s besides inactive moving done his emotions surrounding the nonaccomplishment of his friend. “There’s inactive a level successful my caput [where it feels] unjust and frustrating that he’s not with america anymore,” he told Rolling Stone UK. “It was really, really, impossibly hard for maine to woody with losing Liam.”

At the clip of his death, Payne had precocious levels of intoxicant and different substances successful his system, according to toxicology reports. The instrumentalist had been unfastened astir his struggles with drinking and addiction successful his lifetime.

In an interrogation connected Jay Shetty’s On Purpose podcast pursuing Payne’s death, Cassidy touched connected the aforesaid subject. “He experienced struggles with intelligence wellness for years earlier dating me,” she said astatine the time. “It’s thing that I, astatine first, didn’t afloat understand. I don’t person addiction that runs successful my family. I deliberation successful the opening of our relationship, erstwhile helium was struggling a small bit, I deliberation that I retrieve conscionable benignant of being like, successful my head, ‘Can’t you conscionable not bash that?’ But it’s not that easy. It’s not casual astatine all.”

See Cassidy’s TikTok below.